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Stealing or Tasting?

9/30/2015

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   As I sat with a group of friends on a warm Fall day in Napa County, someone casually mentioned that they always taste grapes before they buy them.  Of course, I thought to myself, Who doesn’t?It turns out my friend D___ doesn’t. To my surprise, he challenged, “You eat grapes without buying them?!”

    “No, I just taste one,” our friend explained.

    D___ questioned, “Before you paid for it? And with no way to account for how much to pay for it?”

    “I guess so,” she said.

    “I do too,” I said.

    “Really?  Who else?” D___ asked.

    Most of us around that circle taste a single grape before buying a whole bunch.  The consensus of the group reassured me that I wasn’t breaking a social taboo by my sampling.

    “What else?” D__ asked, “Do you ‘taste’ before buying?"

    Nothing. I think to myself, just as our friend S___ says, “Strawberries.”

    I exclaim, “You eat a whole strawberry before buying a basket of them?!”

    She nods, “Same principle as the grape.”

    In my head I think, Oh no, that is stealing.


  In that moment I realize how arbitrary many social norms are and how we aren’t even aware of when and how we learned them.  I’m sure my mom tasted grapes in the store, but didn’t taste strawberries.  That’s why one's okay with me and the other isn't.

    One thing I love about being with people that aren’t just like me is that I get an opportunity to see my own internal biases and assumptions.  Sometimes I don’t know what I really believe until I’m faced with its opposite. This reminds me of a bumper sticker that’s popular around here:  Don’t believe everything you think.

    I still taste a grape before committing to buy a whole bunch, but now I’m aware of  the moral complexity of that act as I do it, turning an ordinary trip to the grocery store into a spiritual practice.





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Imperfect or none?  That’s the only choice

9/23/2015

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I often say you can have imperfect community or no community, but perfect community is not at option.  I’ve been going to the same church for more than 30 years so I’ve had ample opportunity to practice being a part of imperfect community.  Sometimes it is no fun at all.  But other times, something happens at church that makes my heart soar, causing all the frustrations and disappointments to be worth it.


As I embark on a career as an artist it strikes me that the same principle is at work in  art.  You can make imperfect art or no art, but perfect art isn’t an option.  As soon as I had that realization, I understood that it’s true for all human endeavors:  you an be an imperfect parent or no parent, but perfect parenting isn’t an option.  Nor is perfect cooking, cleaning, teaching, building, loving, meditating...the list goes on and on.


I find this notion very freeing.  Perfection is not an option so I don’t concern myself with it.  I don’t have to do things ‘right’. I just have to do things and then see what parts of it come out right. I act, I notice, I reflect, and I revise.  Not a bad system for making art...or a life.
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THE VIEW FROM MY INTERSECTION

9/16/2015

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Mad max or Star Trek Future?
(justice)

I grew up watching Star Trek.  I’m told I saw the original series when it first aired, but it was watching the reruns, and then the continuation of the series, that deeply shaped who I am.

Star Trek teaches us over and over again that cooperation, respect, and diversity make life better for all beings. We learn that you don’t have to be a human to have humanity.  And that struggling with morally ambiguous questions is a never-ending privilege that come from exploring borders.  Star Trek teaches me that working together we can solve the toughest problems of our time.  Food, energy, tolerance, respect, and justice are all abundantly possible. The future I see in Star Trek is the future that I want-- and the future I’m working for.

I often despair at the futility of that kind of hope. But the alternative is entirely unacceptable.  The alternative leaves my descendents in a Mad Max world:  a society without empathy, resources, and trust, in a world full of fear and scarcity?limitations.

I’ll never know which future we humans will get.  Likely it will be somewhere in the middle.  But I’ll do my part, however small, to bring about the world I’d want to inherit.

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The view from my intersection

9/9/2015

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Delusions of Time

Self-reflection


In the future, my life is always spacious.  I have all the time to do what I’ve planned. And believe me, I make plans.

Then the future comes and suddenly it looks a lot like the present I had been planning from:  already so full that I never get to most of my to-do list.

Last spring I decided to blog for a year starting on my 50th birthday.  I imagined that I’d have plenty of time to do that once I’d stopped working and became a full-time writer.  And I've missed my first deadline. But, you see, our friend Dan is dying, and I started classes at Berkeley City College, and our daughter Kalin is moving out of the house, and friends are visiting and, and, and…Well, LIFE. There is always life.

Amazing things came from my decision to start writing a novel for my 40th birthday.  It wasn’t an easy or straightforward path to get YELLOW CROCUS into the world.  I missed a lot of self-imposed deadlines.  But I muddled through and now I’m a full time artist—well, except for the rest of my rich and full life :)

So I’m sticking with my decision to blog each week, though I’m starting a week (or is it two?) late. I always want there to be LIFE in the midst of my life.  So I’ll make my plans, deluded that I’ll have all the time in the world in my mythical future, and I’ll muddle through in the reality of now.  

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    Laila Ibrahim is a passionate author set out to write stories of love's ability to transcend human-made systems of oppression.

     Living Right goes beyond the headlines to reveal the life and death stakes when a devoted mother struggles to reconcile her evangelical Christian beliefs with her son’s sexual orientation.

    Set in the antebellum South, Yellow Crocus is a rich, evocative tale of love, loss and redemption between an enslaved black woman, her privileged white charge, and their fight for freedom.

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